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The Secret Lives of Church Ladies
September, 2020
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September, 2026
THE TRUE CONFESSIONS OF FIRST LADY FREEMAN
New Novel Coming September 2026
The wife of a popular and powerful megachurch pastor upends her charmed “rags-to-Rolex” life when her secretive past comes roaring into the spotlight—in this much-anticipated, splendidly unruly debut novel from Deesha Philyaw, author of the award-winning hit short story collection The Secret Lives of Church Ladies.
From the moment Scharisse Freeman ditched her humble roots and married a megachurch pastor fifteen years her senior, she’s been labeled too brash and too “of the world” by church folks who grudgingly accepted her into their fold, and too holy by her estranged childhood bestie Petra. Schar doesn’t have many allies, but that hasn’t stopped her from building an enviable business empire spanning books to clothing to branded products, and living the comfortable life her husband’s power affords her.
On the eve of her 40th birthday, Schar gets the final bit of validation she’s always dreamt of: a coveted invitation to participate in the First Lady USA pageant. This is her chance to be accepted by the other pastors’ wives—First Ladies—who are “like Jesus’ disciples if they had been a group of mean girls.” Finally, blissfully, the ice between Schar and the other First Ladies begins to thaw.
But as the pageant nears, a sensational scandal breaks with Schar at its center, and her carefully curated life implodes. Schar faces down shame and terrible secrets from her childhood and is reminded that in the eyes of the church, optics can matter more than the truth.
Unflinchingly funny, frank, and packed with surprising turns, The True Confessions of First Lady Freeman exults in the luscious, messy pleasure of finally feeling free.
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Available in bookstores 9/29/2026
What others are saying about THE TRUE CONFESSIONS OF FIRST LADY FREEMAN
“Being set in the exclusive world of the wealthy, Black mega-church elite would be reason enough to gobble this novel down, but Schar’s transformation from disempowered try-hard, chasing after the approval of the other First Ladies, to utterly authentic badass is so well earned and so heartfelt — I laughed, I cried, I got turned on! Philyaw has created a heroine you can’t help but root for, and a book you can’t help but love.”
– Rufi Thorpe, author of Margo’s Got Money Troubles
“The True Confessions of First Lady Freeman is a rollicking peek into the life of a megachurch pastor’s wife—who’s keeping a messy secret sure to shock her hypocritical church community. Witty, raunchy, and funny as hell, Deesha Philyaw brilliantly exposes the minefield of seeking self-acceptance in a world consumed with performing ‘holiness.’ So propulsive, I inhaled it all in one sitting. Delicious!”
– Tia Williams, New York Times bestselling author of The Missed Connection
“The True Confessions of First Lady Freeman is sexy, shocking and funny as hell. It’s a wonderfully operatic tale of intrigue and betrayal within a Black church. Deesha Philyaw has written a love letter to the women in this world, and this novel practically glows with her affection.”
– Victor LaValle, author of Lone Women
“This novel is so alive! Philyaw manages the tension between faith and desire with an expert hand.”
– Raven Leilani, author of Luster
“Messy, bodied, simply goddamn alive! Another standout from Deesha Philyaw, one of our brightest and most gorgeously talented writers. It should be a crime to be so funny while simultaneously yanking your heart out of your chest. What a novel! A blessing just to read it.”
– Kristen Arnett, author of Stop Me If You’ve Heard This One
“Propelled by a ferocious love for others, The True Confessions of First Lady Freeman heals as much as it humors, inspires as much as it scandalizes, and may just turn you on as much as it forces you to turn inward. Irresistibly catty, twisty, and packed with secrets, Deesha Philyaw’s debut novel cracks open the megachurch industrial complex in a way no one has before. Trust me: your jaw will be on the floor many, many times. And no hypocrite shall be spared.”
– Mateo Askaripour, author of Black Buck and This Great Hemisphere
“I love mess, nothing in the world is better than scandalous church mess, and The True Confessions of First Lady Freeman is funny and juicy and sexy and a delicious peek behind the pulpit of a Black megachurch. Deesha Philyaw is so good at writing complex characters who feel full and alive—I wanted to live inside this book, volunteer for the usher board for this book, tithe my ten percent to this book. As a matter of fact, that’s me in the front pew, waving my MLK fan, shouting ‘Amen’ and ‘Hallelujah!’ What a good-ass book!”
– Samantha Irby, author of We Are Never Meeting in Real Life and Wow, No Thank You
“Being set in the exclusive world of the wealthy, Black mega-church elite would be reason enough to gobble this novel down, but Schar’s transformation from disempowered try-hard, chasing after the approval of the other First Ladies, to utterly authentic badass is so well earned and so heartfelt — I laughed, I cried, I got turned on! Philyaw has created a heroine you can’t help but root for, and a book you can’t help but love.”
– Rufi Thorpe, author of Margo’s Got Money Troubles
“The True Confessions of First Lady Freeman is a rollicking peek into the life of a megachurch pastor’s wife—who’s keeping a messy secret sure to shock her hypocritical church community. Witty, raunchy, and funny as hell, Deesha Philyaw brilliantly exposes the minefield of seeking self-acceptance in a world consumed with performing ‘holiness.’ So propulsive, I inhaled it all in one sitting. Delicious!”
– Tia Williams, New York Times bestselling author of The Missed Connection
“The True Confessions of First Lady Freeman is sexy, shocking and funny as hell. It’s a wonderfully operatic tale of intrigue and betrayal within a Black church. Deesha Philyaw has written a love letter to the women in this world, and this novel practically glows with her affection.”
– Victor LaValle, author of Lone Women
“Messy, bodied, simply goddamn alive! Another standout from Deesha Philyaw, one of our brightest and most gorgeously talented writers. It should be a crime to be so funny while simultaneously yanking your heart out of your chest. What a novel! A blessing just to read it.”
– Kristen Arnett, author of Stop Me If You’ve Heard This One
“Propelled by a ferocious love for others, The True Confessions of First Lady Freeman heals as much as it humors, inspires as much as it scandalizes, and may just turn you on as much as it forces you to turn inward. Irresistibly catty, twisty, and packed with secrets, Deesha Philyaw’s debut novel cracks open the megachurch industrial complex in a way no one has before. Trust me: your jaw will be on the floor many, many times. And no hypocrite shall be spared.”
– Mateo Askaripour, author of Black Buck and This Great Hemisphere
THE SECRET LIVES OF CHURCH LADIES
The nine stories in THE SECRET LIVES OF CHURCH LADIES feature four generations of characters grappling with who they want to be in the world, caught as they are between the church’s double standards and their own needs and passions.
With their secret longings, new love, and forbidden affairs, these church ladies are as seductive as they want to be, as vulnerable as they need to be, as unfaithful and unrepentant as they care to be, and as free as they deserve to be.
What others are saying about SECRET LIVES of CHURCH LADIES
“To encounter Deesha Philyaw’s work is to encounter contemporary folktales. They are the stories of southern customs and mores and of voices over the back fence. The daughters and granddaughters of Toni Cade Bambara and Bebe Moore Campbell readers need this book.”
– Yona Harvey
author of Hemming the Water
writer for the Marvel Comics World of Wakanda series
“Our new decade deserves a new literary force with major literary skills. Deesha Philyaw uses the comic, the allegorical, and the geographic to examine black intimacies and black secrets. Her work is as rigorous as it is pleasurable to read.”
– Kiese Laymon
author of HEAVY
“This is no mere collection of sappy romance stories. The love in Philyaw’s stories runs the gamut from sweet to bitter, sexy to sisterly, temporary to time tested, often with hidden aspects. The word secret in the title is earned, and some of the secrets are downright juicy.”
— Tara Campbell, author of Midnight at the Organporium, from Barrelhouse magazine
"Marks the emergence of a bona fide literary treasure."
— Marion Winik, The Star Tribune
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THE SECRET LIVES OF CHURCH LADIES won the 2021 PEN/Faulkner Award for Fiction, the 2020/2021 Story Prize, and the 2020 LA Times Book Prize: The Art Seidenbaum Award for First Fiction and was a finalist for the 2020 National Book Award for Fiction.