Irresponsible
I worked on my novel this morning.
Now, for a writer, that’s generally not a profound statement. However, for someone like me who is in a constant, quiet frenzy juggling freelance assignments with due dates and not much pay, housework, mama-work, volunteering, more housework, more mama-work, and a novel and non-fiction book projects that might pay off in the future–this is a really profound statement.
If I was buried beneath all my laundry–dirty, and clean-but-not-put-away laundry–you would need a search party to find me. I think the kittens’ food bowl is empty. I have a dear friend whose call I haven’t returned in over a week. I have a freelance assignment that’s due today, and an appointment this afternoon that leads right into the time my kids come home from school. I had all intentions of finishing that freelance assignment this morning, taking my time with it. Instead, the novel called, so I ignored everything else, and I ran with it. I had fun with it. I realized how much I miss it when I’m doing other things. It felt like an indulgence to write. It felt irresponsible.
And I loved, loved, loved it.
So now, I will work on that freelance assignment at a manic pace, and probably, maybe finish in time. Whatever happens, I feel like I spent this morning doing exactly what I needed to be doing.


April 18th, 2008 at 11:05 am
“I feel like I spent this morning doing exactly what I needed to be doing.”
Then that is exactly what you should have been doing!
cef
April 18th, 2008 at 7:38 pm
There’s nothing irresponsible about working on your novel! Hurray for you for giving yourself the time.
April 19th, 2008 at 6:29 am
“And I loved, loved, loved it.”
See, sometimes writing CAN be bliss!
*sigh*
You’ve inspired me to start getting my mojo back…
April 21st, 2008 at 10:36 pm
YOU GO GIRL! Yes, the muse is a harsh mistress, but, the rewards are simultaneously dubious and glorious.